what it is. what it isnt.

we were so cute in the beginning.
nothing cute now.

we were so in love at one point in time.
that love is gone.

when it left, i used to wonder where it went.
i dont care anymore.

i used to be able to get lost in my dreams at night.
i dont dream anymore.

i used to think about how things could be.
they can't.

i would daydream about how i wanted everything.
i dont want anything.

i used to wonder how to make everything better.
nothing will be better.

i used to write poetry of my paradise.
there is no paradise.

i used to be happy.
im not anymore.